Right I'm kinda supposed to be doing some math. (I love doing math best cause it's the only subject I can practice with my ipod plugged in.) But I just need to let this out!


Okay, so I've slacked in my studies for long enough. Like since that 'life-changing' point of my life last august. After that event I guess I just.. gave in and gave out. Complete disregard towards my priorities. But I say life-changing for a reason because it did change for the better afterall. I found my way back to the best any girl can ever have, and that's Jesus. :)


The last time I remembered that I really studied was during my sec two streaming. That's a longgg time people. And since EOYs last year, I've only relied on grace and grace alone. And I thank Him a thousand times over for His beautiful grace for giving me such undeserved results every single time without fail. (My prelim results were undeserved, really. I don't even remember MUGGING for any papers, but 16 points? I know He could have given me more but I just know He wants me to see His increase and multiplication.)


The time is right now for me to peak. I looked at the calendar, and saw barely five rows of dates before my first paper. My jaw hung wide open and my heart stopped for brief moment. My first thought was, 'WHAT THE? I THOUGHT THE TEACHERS SAID SEVEN WEEKS?!' Then I smiled to myself. (And no, I'm not psycho.) All I could say was, "Jesus, I'm ready for it, are You ready for it?" And duh, Jesus was probably ready 2000 years ago!


I'm ready for the best ride of my life. :) Really, I've never felt such joy and excitement studying for my exams. You know, this one month is going to be such an intimitate time with Him. He's my personal 24/7 tutor and He's my secret to success. :) His yoke is easy and His burden is light, and therefore this journey will be edifying. It will build, not rob. I will increase, not decrease. And it shall be nothing but a mere breeze.


If math was a person I'd probably curse and swear at him everyday. I detest math. But yet He still gave me an 82 for my emath paper! If that's not God I don't know who it could be! I could NEVER have done it. I only briefly did a few questions the night before, that's all! So what if I got an F9 for my Chem during prelims? When I get an A1 for the O's, I'd know it's God. This time, I'm going to show all those scholars that what they can do, I can do better! Being ordinary doesn't mean you cannot do extra-ordinary things. Can you imagine? Last time with God's grace alone, I yielded decent results. This time round, with me WORKING through God's Grace, how much more I can acheive, through Him? I really can't wait to sit for the exams and show the world that "Wo de ye shu ke yi!" (Quote from Alvin)


To all my friends who don't know Him, whatever I said above probably don't mean much to you at all. But you know you still need to do the exams and you know you are going to do it well. Four years in Commonwealth, c'mon. Give those four years their worth. What you are capable of dreaming, you are capable of acheiving. And boy, year after year, do we get surprises! :) Anytime you feel low, like you need someone to take your hand and pull you up, know that the Jesus that loves Pearlyn loves you too! You never know, you might just get a glimpse of His awesome-ness when you try reaching out to Him for help. In any case, I'd be here as well! :)


To my kingdom friends who are thoroughly in love with Him, know that He loves you and me beyond our human comprehension. Yup, when you know that the creator of the heavens and the earths loves you, the mere human walking on the street, nothing else can stand in your way. And I say NOTHING. (It's kinda like saying Brad Pitt is completely crazy about me, a girl somewhere far off in Singapore, but only a million times better!) When you're filed with His love, everything else just falls into place. I don't know about you, but I know without any doubt in my heart, that He will do exceedingly and abundantly above all that I can ever ask or think! Don't work by logic, work by the spirit. He knows best, and He will give you no less than the best. Everytime I'm led by the spirit to skip a chapter or focus on a specific part, I never get let down during the actual paper. :) We all have times we just lose faith, just feel like giving up, just wanna be 'normal'. Remember, faith is a gift, and God loves to give you, His beloved, gifts. ASK Him to lead you to the cross, where His love first poured out. He made us to live a life led radically, so with each breath that you take, know that you are set apart FOR His glory, THROUGH His grace and IN His everlasting love.


Wow, that was quite an overflow. Man, Jesus is awesome. Prolly not going to update much till after O's. But you know you'll always find me on twitter and facebook. Hehe. Goodnight world!

Stoic. 
Can I, spell it all out for you? 


Girl, you aren't gon' stay in there forever, are you? 

It's about time to see if history stays in the past or repeats itself.




One thing's for sure, i'm not going to do this all over again.

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Then again, bribe me.

 

God says, 'I miss you when you're not with me, come back.'

Jesus I don't ever wanna loose sight of you, ever again. Lord I thank you that Your love for me is eternal, and that even in the midst of all my anger and mistakes, You love me. And Your love never fails, ever. For You have loved me with an everlasting love. Lord I'm so sorry for failing to see how close you were to me, and instead choosing to focus on my circumstances. I'm sorry if I've ever thought that I could be perfect even without You. Because really, I am NOTHING without You. I am weak, but YOU are strong. And how stupid was I to believe all that crap. The ultimate expression of Your love was already shown 2000 years ago. I should've known better. You would NEVER let me go through the same thing ever again, You would never let any hurt or pain come near me, simply because You love me. No weapon formed against me shall prosper, for You love me too much to let anything happen to me. And really, what do I have to worry about. For You have worked out all the steps in my life long before I took my first breath of fresh air. And You know the plans You have for me, plans to prosper me and give me a future. Lord I cast it all onto you, and I say all this is none of my business. That You would make ALL things work for good for me. You'd take care of everything for me. For I am a child of the King, an heir of His abundance.

 

Daddy God's very beloved.  
 

1. Don't you just love high school musical songs? Okay fine, maybe you don't. But I miss them, so much. :( All of the sudden!

2. Had a long day in church. Was serving today in youth choir and.. I really didn't expect to find myself a little freaked. I mean, I've been on stage with the CSS choir singing for four years but it's different knowing that people can watch you worship. So yeah, guess that takes awhile to feel comfortable about. :) I didn't actually feel super pumped to serve today, but I trusted that when I pour out the little that I had, God will fill me up with a double portion. :)

3. Gosh, DG dinner is alwayyyyyyyyys super funny. Haha. Bang, bang, bang, who die? Haha. Can't wait for the DG bbq next weekend! :) Was some random idea but I guess it's gonna happen afterall! Pray that everything will work out k? And pray that most of the newcomers would turn up. It'd be great for everyone to really get closer. Afterall, kingdom friendships are for eternity, amen? :)

4. I'm sorry, but it felt just like home. I don't know why I'm apologising, but yeah. I hope I'm not being selfish, and I do know my limits. But I miss that feeling.. you know? It's been, the longest time my friend. It wasn't nostalgia, it was simply that sense of.. knowing that I can be myself. Knowing that I'm free to be safe and safe to be free around you. I hope for the best for you, the very very best. :)

5. This week has been rocky, in so many ways. I don't know, just got alot of emotions to handle because things seem to.. go wrong at all the wrong times. But sometimes, I wonder if I'm the cause of all my trouble. I want to be filled with the exuberant joy of the Lord, how great it is to bask in His love. Well, weekend is here but I barely got work done. :( Better start on my homework at least!

Well, till next time my darlings!

 

SOME of Reuel! :) 

I don't have much time to hang online so I'd just blog real quick. :) The Zone Conference was beyond words. I received soooo much and I thank God for just organising such an AWESOME event for the thousands and thousands who were there. Hillsong United and Pastor Judah Smith were super duper anointed! It's amazing to see soooo many people jumping and singing in praise!! Like Joel Houstan said, nothing is more relevant to people than God HIMSELF. :) It doesn't matter who's preaching, or who's playing, because He'd be there! The message that night was short, sharp, and powerful. There're so many things I'm ashamed about myself. So many habits that I can't seem to overcome on my own. And it hurts sometimes when your past comes haunting you. But through it all, I know I have a greater strength to depend on. That night was just all about standing with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all. :) 

Oh btw, the pics are uploaded on my FB page so go check it out yeah?? 

There seems to be alot of things working against me right now. Some things that shouldn't be happening right now cause now's not the right time. Other things I can't seem to keep control of. And there are others, which have nothing to do with me but somehow just.. attacks me. I would say everything's pretty much very messy. And I've got to really, sort them out thoroughly and get this heart and mind of mine on the right track. Whatever it is, I know I will be overcompensated at the end of the day. :) 

But at least there's one thing that made me real pumped today! Downloaded tons of audio sermons!!!!!!!!! It's like, finding treasure. Haha.

Alright, bed time for Pearlyn! Night! 

THE ZONE IN A WEEK!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?!?! 

Five things I need to say at 1.49 AM:

1. Had fun today with the Reuel people! Longgg day in church today. Went to watch Harry Potter and it was amazing how the image on screen was exactly the same as how I imagined when I was reading the book. Just shows how good Rowling is. Doubt people who didn't read the book or follow the series would enjoy the movie cause it was more of a.. 'in between' movie, more like linking up the before and after stories and stuff. So yeah. But still, love Harry Potter BECAUSE it's Harry Potter. :) Had so much laughter during supper and stuff. I mean srsly, when you have Ian and Charissa around? Haha.

2. Today was a, emotionally challenging day. From the start to the end, it was just bomb after bomb AFTER bomb thrown towards my direction. All the wrong things, at the wrong time. Knew things I wished I didn't, heard things I wished I never heard. So many things I wish I could do something about, while others, I just don't really know how to feel about them. And though I'm strong in Him, somehow I feel that it's actually okay to feel a lil messed up in between. I don't know. It's not exactly driving me crazy to a point that I'm gonna loose myself, but somehow, it just.. doesn' t feel okay at all.

3. I don't understand you, I thought we were cool. Tell me seriously, what is it about me that rebukes you so much? Aren't you tired at being so critical about everything, and everyone? To think you were someone who really inspired me to have the courage to proclaim over people's lives. 

4. I'd pray, for you. And you. And me. 

5. Tmr is going to be better, gonna go get to sleep soon. Night, people. :)

 
Sweet Dreams (Are Made of This) - Eurythmics [Cover]

Five things I need to say at 11.15PM:

1. Dang, there's school tmr!! :( Urgh can't we celebrate our youth a little longer?? 

2. Oh btw that's a vid of my sis and I jamming! My sister can sing pretty darn well for a 12 year old. I'm doing the harmony and the piano. I have to mention that because someone told me that I have a stunning voice only to find out it's actually my sister's. HAHA. :P 

3. Okay, all I'm left with now is my social studies essay and my chinese composition. Then again, do you think I'd have the drive to finish it by tonight? Haha. 

4. You're special, but not exclusive to me. Maybe in time I'd see what Jesus has planned for me. But for now, I'm really happy with what I have. I feel so blessed each day. :) I'm overflowing with testimonies to share each day. Life is just, really really awesome.

5. I'm glad I took that step to allow God to touch my grandma's life. It's really hard to communicate with her nowadays, because she so pessimistic all the time. But I'm sure His love reached out to her today. :) And I just pray that this seed that was planted earlier on, will continue to grow, to bloom and to bear good fruit in her life. I believe healing on the inside and the out will just keep flowing, keep going, until she's overflowing with it. :) 


Time to get back to my work!